I've talked about Giggles before and how we've had a few threesomes but I've never actually done anything with her. The only way for me to get over my shyness was to be ordered to do things, and so the plan was created. We decided with Giggles to meet her at a dungeon party that we were attending, after which he would give me to her to do as she wished, and when she was done he would come in to top us both.
Before the party was an event in which stations were set up with different kinks that people could try and explore. You had the guy renown for fire, the violet wand guy, the caning guy, ect. Giggles and her friend went around trying everything but I stayed back, mostly watching the flogging station. I've been flogged before, a bit, but I wanted to try it again. The woman running the station had been at a different party and I'd seen her basically destroy her sub (in a good way) and she has a very good reputation. I was fascinated. The problem was that this was in public and I don't play in public. At first I was worried that I'd have to take my shirt off like the other people and I'm not comfortable enough with myself to let other people see me naked. Then I was worried about other people watching me be submissive in any way, shape or form. Apparently I'm still not comfortable with that either. And then I worried about them both together, until the woman noticed me staring and all but dragged me over. She was really nice and comforting, Sir wanted me to and I was allowed to keep my shirt on, so I agreed.
It was awesome :) It only lasted about 15 minutes, and at first she was going really easy on me. I stood at the cross, staring at nothing and just taking in the sensation and the rest of the room just fell away. She checked in with me a couple of times to see what I wanted to try and then picked things up until they were just starting to hurt. It was great. I was so proud of myself for "playing" in public for the first time, and so pleased that I had made Sir proud. The demonstrators slave kept commenting about how hot my reactions to the pain were and Sir said that a crowd had formed and watched my little demo. I had actually been the center of attention as a sub and I hadn't minded! I was a bit embarrassed afterwards, but mostly I couldn't stop smiling. Yay babysteps!!!
We hung around for most of the party and then hurried home where I was given over to Giggles. She likes to use implements, and so most of this time was spent with me laying down being flogged, paddled and caned. I had welts on my thighs for days and I know for a fact that she wasn't hitting anywhere close to what she was capable of. It was both brilliant and painful. Sir had decided to remain in the room and at times either held my hand or kept me still. The comfort of his presence at moments when the pain got intense was all I needed to keep going. Afterwards we all played together and I had my first experience of sex with a girl. It was a lot less messy than I'd expected.
The hardest part for me in all of this was using the title 'Sir' in front of her. She knows what our relationship is and she's been on the scene for a fairly long time. She's even in a triad with a master and his slave and so there was no danger of judgement, and yet I kept trying to get around it. This prompted a bit of a public reminder from Sir which was also pretty embarrassing, but I understand why it was necessary. As always this is a game of trust, and I have to trust that he'd never put me in a situation where I'll be judged or made to feel badly about what I enjoy. I have to trust that it's ok for me to act in this way and that others understand and accept it. So far everything that I was afraid to try ended up being worth it and I have to trust that those are the places he's taking me. And I do, or I wouldn't have ended up on that cross or in that room eating someone out.
What's next? Who knows. D/s elements are starting to creep into our normal lives very slowly and it's an exciting and interesting process. Those are thoughts for another day though. For now, goodnight and may you all have sexy dreams.
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