Welcome to my first ever entry. You are joining the small and privileged group who can say they know the inner workings of my sexual mind. It's like the rest of the world sees Clark Kent, but you get to know that underneath the buttoned up shirt is some blue lycra and a cape. Only I'm more like Superwoman, and you're more likely to find some fishnets and a pair of handcuffs under my clothes.
I'm starting this blog for two reasons. The first is that, as stated in the description, not a lot of people know about this part of my life. Call it fear, shame or practicality, but for whatever reason I'm not at the point where I feel comfortable sharing rope burn anecdotes at dinner parties. This blog is a chance for me to talk about what I've done, what I'm feeling and the questions that I have. You're my internet inner circle.
The second reason is that I've had a lot of questions in my travels, and although there are a lot of good resources regarding kink, poly and submission I had a difficult time finding ones regarding all three. For example, there were practically no articles addressing the etiquette for giving your dom partner a blowjob with his non kinky wife. What's the dynamic? Who gets priority over which bits? Where do all the hands go? Obviously this is something you would discuss with your partner beforehand, but it's nice to get a perspective from someone else who's been there. (For the record, it would seem that sitting awkwardly off to the side while they fool around isn't the best way to go, but that's a whole other post).
So that's the why. As for who I am, I'm just a normal woman in her late 20's who craves the exciting in bed. I may not have had sex until late in my life (a couple of years ago... also a whole other post) but it's never been a mystery to me what I liked. As a little girl I used to have the boy dolls tie up the girl dolls. My friend (who in retrospect is probably just as kinky as I am) and I would only ever play games where one of us would be captured, tied up, and roughly handled by the other. We always fought over who got to be the victim. The selling point of a film for me as a teenager was whether or not some poor girl would be kidnapped, manhandled and threatened by big strong men. And lets not even get started on what I discovered when I got my hands on the internet.
So it's safe to say that I've always been submissive, which tends to go hand in hand with kink. As for poly, that was introduced to me a little less than a year ago by someone I was interested in dating. It started as a 'we'll see how this goes' thing, and here I am still seeking out people who are interested in multiple relationships.
The last year has been full of adventures but I'm still very new and spend most of my time trying to figure out what I'm doing. I hope you'll stick with me as I have fun and get scared and try crazy things and make a fool out of myself. I can't promise that it'll be pretty, but I'm finding that the really fun stuff never is.
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